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"Never again will I say never anymore, Heaven has plan of its own"
"Never again will I say never anymore, Heaven has made sure I am not alone"

Last night before my connection got er.. crappy (is that the correct word) Emily told me something like this in Msn… "I have never expect that I will be this close to you, I have never expect that I will have this close relationship to you as a sister in Christ you know?"

… yeah.

Then earlier, after I got up and ate my breakfast… God told me to go to the site of… Ranma and Akane, Emily, Chris, Erica, Tamara… and He made me look at their changes. His Changes in their life.

Before… Ranma used to be a Rude person, boastful, never ask forgiveness, prideful. But now… Ranma can say "sorry", well he is still rude but not prideful anymore and it’s easy for him to apologize and to forgive.

Akane used to be… rude, scary, empty, sad, hopeless. But now God changed her, she is not rude, she is full of hope, so happy.

Chris, a pastor son who doesn’t want to talk about God in the channel before. Who loves anime more than of God Who treats me "sama" but now as a sister in Christ and man oh man… the way he preached in his xanga…

Emily, she used to complain a lot, she used to have a low-confidence of herself, always looking at the negative, talking cursed words… now.. look at her… Strong, courageous, can control her mouth, can’t stop talking about God.

Tamara, who thinks she has not purpose in life, who tried to pleased everything but no one seems to notice, feel alone, empty but now… she’s strong, wanting to be with God when she can’t feel God (has a longing heart), a good adviser and getting strong.

Erica, who mocked Christianity, empty, rude, unsatisfied… had become a Christian, felt sastifaction, not empty anymore and ready to defend Christianity

Before I did not expect that God will use me like this. I used to be a cheater, backstabber, user, pretender, meanie, scary, boastful, prideful, pleaser of men… my life has no direction… I have no plans for the future…

But God changed that. And God used me to some people that everytime I am down He is using them to me too. I am very thankful for God for His wonderful plans for us.

I have never expect to have a forum like this, have such a great bretherens online and offline, a great and best godswill. In the past I didn’t even dream or expect that my life will be like this…

…God-given Life… God-controlling your life… God-submitting life is truly the best. It maybe painful temporary experience but the result is the best.

Looking back at the past… the ssforever issue, the readers’ curses when I turned my ccs.. christian, the rejection of other religious forums to me because I was once a sorceress, the rejection of other christian churches when they found out about my past, the misunderstanding of other christians to my past, the rejection of my family and relatives…

it’s.. terrifying…it’s heartbreaking…It’s painful

… but the result of this… is the best. Because I can see what God has done and what God is doing now and I know God is NOT FINISH WITH ME YET.

He still has a LOT of Surprises for me in the future

I Love you Father God
You are the only one I love oh God,
I’ll give you everything
all of my life without pretending
because what I want as I live… is to love you…